i once read in a pyschology textbook that the most external factor in friendships is distance.  i guess that true to a large degree.  i would say the largest factor in maintaining a friendship is dissapointment.  thinking that you're friendship is more than it is.  

i know this sounds really depressing but recently this has been so true.  i just dont know anymore.

james joyce once wrote a short story about a boy in a bazaar.  he called it "araby" and the it was overlooked by many publishers.  however i think this is the story that most relates to people my age.  i find myself feeling alot like that boy.  

let the essays begin

im actually working through them at a good pace. alot of essay statements to bizarre questions.

*the pitt app set me back a good 10 minutes.  honestly if you complete it, you will feel 5x smarter

the only plans this weekend is college apps, surprise surprise

ill update later when more exciting things happen

alot of people have heard back from their respective colleges, and this process has put alot of stress on my mind.

i for one, was rejected from my early school, columbia.  now a shit load of work waits for me over christmas break.  i envy the people that got into their first choice school, they can relax and take the year as it comes. for me, i will have to wait until the first week of april to figure out where i will be attending college.  does it suck? yes.  but it also builds character, as cheesy as that sounds.

alot of my friends have written logs about the whole college thing, and im not going to rewrite what they wrote.  mahtiyar wrote an entry, that i hope everyone reads.

another weekend update:

i didnt do anything this weekend because my parents said i had to stay home.

sunday - potluck at jens house and eagles game.

what a waste, hopefully ill be able to get back harlem during thanksgiving break....

really fun weekend, recap:

 friday, hung out with marshall for the day.  then at night went to Bertucci's with friends.  then spend friday night watching the untouchables at pat's house.  satuarday woke up and then called people for football.  played at hilltop at 2.  was fun, usually is.  then came home and proceded to eat at Wabi Sabi..  After that i went to Drakes for a halo 2 fest.  which started at 7 and ended at 1.  slept over at fred's house that night.  the next morning i came home.  ate lunch then picked up bascome for to go the sixers game.  thats always fun, but traffic blew ass.  (my first time driving)

i did no hw all week and i didnt go to school on thursday and friday so all my teachers are mad.  so many tests tomorow, but there is an eagles game viewing at bans'.  so im going to stop this for now and study until 8.

o, and potluck at jen's house this sunday